Love Letter To God

Father, where are you leading me?

I am confused. I am worried.

I am confused about what I will do next. There are many options but it is risky for me. I am confused if I am really for it.  I have been asking myself lately of my purpose here on earth.

9 Reasons To Be Grateful

I would like to begin by saying that I am grateful that you are here.

These days so much had been going on with life and on this earth that we live in; so much that I am not watching the news in TV anymore unless I want to know the weather situation. Despite all of these I am surprised with myself that I am staying positive. I no longer complain if things did not go my way. It must have been the effect of my recent attendance at the Metro Manila Regional Conference of SFC. 

Onwards,Uday!

Don't hate yourself. Falling in love is in not an act of stupidity. Never!  You just happened to stumble the wrong person or maybe, just maybe, both of you were at the wrong place at a wrong time.

To That Guy

To that guy,

Please bear with me as I gather my guts and put on my brave face

To save myself from false hopes, disappointments, and heartbreak I would like to know what do these all mean:

To A Brokenhearted Man

What wise words can we say to you?

It is always you who have something sensible to say. If it's not within ourselves, sometimes it is you who would remind us that everything is part of life and everything that we are going through shall pass. And, that every situation is only difficult in the beginning if we persevere.

An Open Letter To A High School Crush

Someday you will find out about me: the President of the Booklover’s Club, the girl who keeps the class record, the girl who accidentally run into the boy’s room during retreat, the girl who overslept in the school clinic, the girl who spilled a chocolate syrup, the girl who preferred to stay at the Jail Booth during Intramurals, and the girl who writes poems about you in the school paper.

A Valentine Story

As I write this paragraph, there are only six days until Valentine’s Day. I’m curious how Valentine is to some people so I asked my friends to share their Valentine story. Majority of them responded that they have no story to tell but I was fortunate that I never stop asking until I received a confirmation that a story will be sent to me.

Here are the stories of pancakes, black valentine, and an almost accident. May these inspire you to live life in the moment, especially on important occasions. 

PANCAKES by Hazel Asoy

Valentine's day, though not an official holiday, is still celebrated by many. I love Valentine's day because it's the day when most of our high school teachers will task us to create Valentine's cards we can give to our friends. I do love receiving Valentine's cards and reading mushy messages from my friends and classmates.

However, it all changed when I experienced being in a relationship. Valentine's day became a not-so-good day for me because I always end up being single before Valentine's.

So, when I had an (ex) boyfriend whom I can celebrate Valentine's day with, I got pretty excited. Maybe, too excited I stressed myself thinking what should I do or prepare for my (ex) boyfriend. But the day before Valentine's, I settled for a pancake.

That day, I saved my allowance so I can buy pancake ingredients. It's my first time to make pancakes and I'm not good when it comes to following directions. In the midst of cooking, I end up burning a piece while the other pancakes end up crumbled. Knowing that I only have a few hours before my next class and to give it to him, panic starts to sink in. It' a total disaster but I have to carry on and prepare something for him.

Instead of whining over a pancake of failure, I got a small plastic tub and arranged the crumbled pancakes at the bottom, drizzled with chocolate syrup and top it with the perfectly shaped yet burned pancake. At the end, it looks like a mango graham cake.

Prepping the pancake isn't really the highlight of that day. The taste test with the unlucky subject is. When we met in my favorite tambayan, I hesitantly offered the pancake. I know that it's not an Instagram-worthy pancake but I hoped that, at the very least, he would appreciate the effort I exerted. Well, he's nice enough to act that he liked it. He ends up eating everything and telling me that it tastes good though he looks like he will puke everything he ate that day.

Hazel is a Registered Criminologist, working as a full – time Technical Support Associate. She also runs a blog called Wannderzel.

Things I am Afraid Of

 I am not sure where to begin.  I have to pause there. I am not lying I am just typing continuously until I come up with something. It’s been a while since I posted here in the blog or shall I say It’s been a while since have written, not even a complete paragraph. I am not sure.

His Favorite Girl

Ole! Ole!  A la la la la la la la la.

I can’t find the right description. Oh right!

My best friend has found his new favorite girl.  

I knew he had because he no longer calls at midnight. He no longer asks if I’ve arrived safely at work. He no longer teases me with my fandom with Korean dramas. He no longer practices archery with me.

I knew he had. This happened before. Usually, he would not show up for a week but it had been a month now.

Life Lately + Looking For Mr. Right

                                                       

Being a bridesmaid needs agility.

There is no doubt that I am busy these days. I am trying my best to show up whenever I am wanted and needed. I am not usually home 24/7. I think my parents are getting used to my schedule.

 So life lately:

To That Guy Who Stopped Asking When

I regretted it.

The very first day you said hello I should have been wise with my answer. I should have asked you directly about your intention.

I panicked thinking all about the possibilities. Then I was afraid that you would never see me again after. Insecurities sink through. I doubted myself. I keep on asking why it was you and not him. Why it was not the person that I like. Why you of all people?

When you stopped asking when the question I had intensified.

Now it felt awkward whenever I see you online. I can't say hi.

I blamed myself for expecting too much. We never had the chance to be acquainted. 

I think, at that time, we were two souls trying to look for possibilities. I was taking my time and you were impatient.

My friends said that you were asking about me. They said that you are coming home again this year.

What are we going to do when we see each other?

Photo by Anton Darius | Sollers on Unsplash

The Happy List // 5

It is almost 5 am.  I woke up sweaty because of the heat. It is really summer. While some are enjoying their vacation. I am eating for breakfast to leave for work. I feel bad not being around often. So I figured I do a quick happy list. 

1. Work location.

2.  Conversations.

3. Getting involved in a prenup photo shoot. It's the thing I want to do!  My former household head in SFC is getting married. The schedule has been reset due to bad weather. Last Saturday it finally happened.

4. Short stories. I finally finished the short story that I have been writing for a month. You may read it here.

5. Korean Drama and The Return of Superman

6.100 Likes. The official Facebook page of this blog has reached a milestone. The photo project in the page under #EverydayWithKoshe has been going on.

7. My brother got married.

8. I almost had a date.

9. People at work is easy to work with.

10. Reading blogs.

How about you guys what have you been up to?

Ex - Lovers

Circumstances separated both of them.

He feels bad that he keep her waiting on date night. His family needed him the most at that time. He loves her so much that he cannot bear to see her lonely.

What Have I Become?

Last December a photo of my college graduation appeared on my Facebook timeline. It has been five years since, and as for high school graduation it would be ten years this 2017.

Looking back I never put much thought of what will I become. The main goal was to graduate and get a job after. I don't have specific plans. Unlike to some of my friends, who I think, figured out their plans earlier. I keep thinking that I am waiting for things to happen. Now, I ask myself after waiting without concrete actions and plans, "What have I become?" Maybe going with the flow should have not taken hundred percent seriously.

Book Review: Career Crossover From Where You Are To Where You Should Be by Venchito Tampon Jr.

One morning I received an email from Venchito asking if I can do a review of his upcoming book. After exchanging emails and checking his background through the links attached I said yes. He then sent me a digital copy of the manuscript of the book.

Snaps from Sierra Madre Hotel and Resort

Even in our way to Tanay, Rizal I felt that something would capture my heart. I ignored the car sickness because there were mountains, trees, goats, horses, mountaineers, bikers, and flowers to see.

AN OPEN LETTER TO (NON) HOARDERS

To All,

I am writing to ask for something which I think, would be difficult to comply especially  if you are  a compulsive hoarder. May this letter be a part of your process of letting go. Let go of the things that might be useful to others. Little by little separate the things you wish to keep longer. I know that you hold on to some trinkets because you want to keep the memory alongside. I respect your reasons but I need you to hear me.

The Best of Blogapalooza Horizons 2.0: Chartering The Unchartered

November 5, 2016, was a milestone for me and the whole Blogapalooza family. Bloggers from Luzon, Visayas, and Mindanao were represented in which #UnitePH. It was held at the Versailles Garden of Novotel.

To The Virgins While You Are Young!

You consider yourself as a virgin. An inexperienced young individual eager to try out the hype. You might think that jumping  from the plane  secured with safety gears and a parachute is something. HECK! It is something. If you are brave and have secured your life insurance, by all means, do it. If you want to sleep in the middle of the forest with your friends go on and schedule that trip. If you find yourself unsatisfied with what you have done, bless your heart I am not stopping you. But you have to take time.

What Are Your Struggles?

What are your struggles?

This is the opening question of our leader in the SFC community when he gave a talk. Usually, he would start with anecdotes relating to his talk.  It was different yet an eye opener for me, and for everyone who is struggling in their own personal lives.